Fuck It..Fuck It All...

.... Idiot! Avery your such and idiot!! your such a pain in the ass..your the biggest jerk on earth for being so selfish..and making people worry..why the fuck must you do something crazy when you feel mess up..how can you be so stupid..

i have no idea what was i thinking anymore..everything that was running in my head was wanting to reach home and cuddle my grandma and cry my heart out..i thought all i had to do was walk home like how i used to do and could see her standing by the gate smiling..but it was all just a hallucination..a fake hallucination..as i was walking..i noticed it will never happen..even the route home now is different..you will never be there anymore..i have no idea how to put what is going on now in words..but im tired of being such a pathetic person..

Avery~

Slowly dying in the inside~